Jan 5, 2012

When in doubt...

(c) Melissa Vega Taken August 2010

I am indecisive.
I think too hard, I worry, I contemplate pros and cons and I allow my mind to get clouded with what ifs, "Am I making the right decision?" along with worrying about the ending rather than the beginning. I am sure all of you have felt this way one or another, you're basically not human if you haven't :] 2012 is opening a lot of doors for me, along with closing a few. While being in college, I have gotten away with not having to make too big of decisions because the next four years were basically planned out for me. Now everything is up for grabs. My life was planned around "semesters", Spring Breaks, summer sessions or ratemyprofessor.com. Some friends of mine are off to Graduate School (which I will eventually get to), marriage, new places, foreign countries or staying right where they are (which is perfectly fine.) As for me, who knows.

Isn't it kind of fun though?
Just not knowing. I have a few exciting things lined up for 2012 including a trip to Thailand and a three month trip to the Philippines, but after that I am going to have to make some decisions. One thing I know for sure though, is that I am truly going to let my heart guide me.

Recently my mother told me to follow my head and not my heart (when it came to love) but I just can't do it. I don't want to be safe.  I don't want to make the decisions that seem like the best for me externally but not internally. She had the best of intentions, making sure I didn't get hurt but If I follow my head, where's the excitement? Following my heart will definitely get me hurt and get me in life's little pickles, but that's where you learn the most. I want to learn. I want to to grow. I want trial and error. I want to look back and say, "You know what, I don't regret what happened, because I followed my heart." I want to live in a different state, make new friends and let the old ones grow.

I want to want.

So do me a favor this year and let your heart guide you.
Don't over think.
Don't worry.
Don't think about what if's and listen to your heart.
If you look back at your life, the best things have happened because you listened to your heart.
Am I right?


  1. I know exactly how you feel, which is funny because I'm just starting college. It freaks me out not exactly knowing what's going to happen and I constantly worry about "what if" or "is this the right choice." I think it's awesome that you now want to follow your heart instead of your head. It will be a lot more exciting and I'm sure everything will turn out great!



  2. Hey Meliss I have been caught up between following my heart and my head as well. It's true I want to be able to live a life where I don't regret anything that I did even if i was hurt in the way.
    Love the tricks you did on your blog :)

  3. how exciting! looks like you have an incredible year ahead of you. :)

  4. Oh I love this photo and motto.
    I suffer from indecisiveness often. Its the worrier in me.
    Cheers to great goals for 2012!

  5. I too am one of those people who cannot help but to follow her heart. I am a HUGE over thinker. Like to the point where those closest to me come to that conclusion, and an ex boyfriend whom I recently reconnected with told me he was glad to see I was still my good old over thinking self. But even my over thinking self can't overcome what I genuinely want in my heart.

    I think it is a very brave thing to accept this the way you have and I am genuinely inspired! I'm super jealous you get to travel this year, I hope you have incredible adventures!

    Happy 2012 :)

  6. I love this post! Thank you for being real and sharing your thoughts! I am in the exact same stage as you. I just graduated and now looking at all the possibilities. I'm very indecisive and definitely over think. So I'm trying to figure out what to do with my life right now :S I say...dream big, follow your heart and mind and say a lot of prayers! We're young and can do anything with our lives! You have inspired me..so thank you! Have fun on your trips and all the best finding out what your next chapter is!

    xo sherri


  7. i think that is a perfect way to think! i feel my heart is usually right and my head can always cloud my judgement!

  8. Melissa, you are such a wonderful young lady, you know that right?! This post is just SO inspiring. I think everyone feels this way. Like, I would question whether or not they were human if they didn't battle indecision as such. I know I'm the worst at it! There's something about choices that can stress me out, and when life (specifically post-grad life) is concerned it seems like there's an endless amount of choices. But to follow your heart is the best advice! That's why I'm so happy and confident in my choice of study- because I followed my heart in choosing it.

    Whatever comes your way, I know you're going to make the BEST decision. To accompany that great heart of yours, you've also got a pretty solid head on your shoulders, and with that combo you're totally going to take this world by storm :)

  9. I love this post. It strikes a chord with me because it is how I typically think.

    I need to just let go and stop worrying about the "what ifs"